haissh i still dun get myself right. y am i so shi bai? everyone always tot i am always the bad guy jux bcuz i cant get to do things right. i duno where the impression come tt im bad or wad.

ok nvm i think i rly sarx... i duno y that whenever i think too much i bcum "depress" but also v fast recover, but the thing is i will chu qi on sth or sum1 de. i shud chng.

srsly this will pose a biggie prob sia. and i still nida ren mroe. if only the world is perfect. its only part of the training for the next part of my life (:

y u dun wanna find the truth...

i admit tt if i dun rly like u, i will be v cold to u... but if u compare this coldness with the one tt i nt tt close to u de its v diff... maybe to many ppl its like the same... but its nt. tts how i feel. i cant see myself de...

once i rmb ms yoges told me tt i look v cold but in fact inside me, i am warm.. ya maybe tts true.. its like b4 u know me and aft u know me, u will geddit... esp when u are close to me... and if i dun rly like u i will be cold to u...

anyway ever since the tou, things have chng alot. whenever ppl gt power, they will somehow abuse it, generally, i dun mean evry1. y is it so? i jux dun geddit. haishhh..

i still find myself shi bai, but some ppl told me its a blessing in disguise... but somehow its still quite negative to me? hmmm i duno? arghhh.

a little stress to me, i also cant take it... maybe is bcuz i alw think, and i thnk too much... X=

oh ya i jux wanna know how u feel abt me.. i duno. and i think too much of the negative side. if i think of the positive side, the greater disappointment i would get. whereas, if i think the vice versa, i will get gd results and will be v happy.

YOU DON'T KNOW ME!

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sth tt happened today, mr tan showed us the overall top 10 results for midyear during maths lesson and only abt 16 ppl were in class. at first i tot it was maths de then i was like huh? y i get 60+ marks only. LOLS.
sth quite gd, i jux happened to be the 10th, if u include jaime frm special stream.. and leslie's percentage is same as mine but i failed eng therefore my L1R5 more than his by 1 X=
I THINK I HAVE TO WORK HARDER! YES YES~ SPEAK MORE ENGLISH.

and some crazy person threw 2 brooms, 3 slippers of diff designs, and a ceramic material stuff down his/her hse. tt is so crazy. gao lou pao wu! can kill ppl. in the end police came.. some person, another ntuc, jux a small witness and talked to police, the one who talk to police shud be someone who alm gt hurt.

chun keat was funny, he delib lie down on the floor, askin us to use chalk to draw the crime scene, and i suggested to take pics! HAHA. chris budi shud be on the frontline lo. LOLS.